Roma Rybkin (January, 15 (2004) - October, 5 (2018))
On the 5th of October, almost at 7:25 a.m. my granny called my mummy that Roma died. It was Friday, not weekend, and I had to go to work. I pretended a normal person, but felt myself broken. I didn't want doing anything - all my thoughts were about Roma. From other hand, I wanted to beat any unfamiliar anoying person to alter my anger and sorrow. (Sometimes I fell better, seeing that other's problems are deeper than my own.)
My doggy died. I can't believe in it. I feel myself like I have lost a great piece of my heart, because now I can be in 2 moods:
a) crying in weakness and thinking about my own end of life;
b) a mix of rageful and scornful mood when I wittingly tell something stupid/rude/impertinent. Really, it helps me to feel not only better, but more brave and strong.
Every day I kill humanity and compassion in my heart by making myself more ruthless with communication between people.
You may not beilive in this, but it's my mood in which I live almost 2 weeks. I have no love and I have no girl. I feel that interesting people avoid me, but I don't want to communicate with anybody who isn't interesting to me.
Everyday I have to pretend a cheerful person whose life is good, becuse I hate any compassion to me. Compassion looks like if some random person tells you, "Oh, you're miserable and worthless, and you can do nothing to repare it". It's really awful.
I'm lesbian, so I needn't a guy to be happy (seriously, I don't like guys). But also I'm asexual, and I value friendship. Most of time I feel myself alone and excess. I often fell myself enough clever to not make communications with every person whose externality looks good for my opinion. But also I have nothing to say to person who defiantly strives to look "well-becoming and accurate" and harshly criticizes other people even for a very little reason.
I'm enogh strong to create arts, butI need a female support.I'm only in a bad mood, SUPPORT ME, GIRLS!!!
Roma Rybkin (January, 15 (2004) - October, 5 (2018))
On the 5th of October, almost at 7:25 a.m. my granny called my mummy that Roma died. It was Friday, not weekend, and I had to go to work. I pretended a normal person, but felt myself broken. I didn't want doing anything - all my thoughts were about Roma. From other hand, I wanted to beat any unfamiliar anoying person to alter my anger and sorrow. (Sometimes I fell better, seeing that other's problems are deeper than my own.)
My doggy died. I can't believe in it. I feel myself like I have lost a great piece of my heart, because now I can be in 2 moods:a) crying in weakness and thinking abo
WRITE ME, GIRLS, I'M IN DEPRESSION!!! by InamotoKirikidzo, journal
WRITE ME, GIRLS, I'M IN DEPRESSION!!!
You may not beilive in this, but it's my mood in which I live almost 2 weeks. I have no love and I have no girl.
I feel that interesting people avoid me, but I don't want to communicate with anybody who isn't interesting to me.
Everyday I have to pretend a cheerful person whose life is good, becuse I hate any compassion to me. Compassion looks like if some random person tells you, "Oh, you're miserable and worthless, and you can do nothing to repare it". It's really awful.
I'm lesbian, so I needn't a guy to be happy (seriously, I don't like guys). But also I'm asexual, and I value friendship. Most of time I feel myself alone and excess. I
For My Friends And Watchers With Love by InamotoKirikidzo, journal
For My Friends And Watchers With Love
My dear friends and watchers!
I'm very happy to know that you like my arts and watch my page
I appreciate your interest to all I've done and all I'll create. Really, it makes me happy and strong will!
So sorry, that I have very few time to answer to everybody personally, but I'm very grateful to your invaluable attention.
Many thanks and hugs,
Inamoto Kirikidzo
With Flash Or Without It? by InamotoKirikidzo, journal
With Flash Or Without It?
#photography #roses #flash
I have several cases when I did 2 photos - without and with a flash. Both are enough beautiful to delete one and prefer another - so, I leave them to show how interesting roses look like in different situations.
For example, here you see 2 photos:
- a left was made without flash and looks like a picture from expensive book about flowers;
- a right was made with flash and looks like it was made at night, but it was made at afternoon!
Sometimes I should use a flash, shouldn't me? :-D